A couple weeks ago I was sitting in church listening to my pastor deliver a sermon focused on the passage in Matthew where Jesus is asleep on a boat when a monstrous storm cropped up threatening to overtake the boat and drown the passengers. His disciples woke him and Jesus calmed the storm leaving the disciples in awe and terrified. After all, the man had just commanded nature and nature obeyed! I think I would be pretty terrified of someone that powerful too!
Its a funny thing, approval. Its not quantifiable, its not equal, and its completely subjective. Yet it is the very thing most of us spend our lives chasing. One of the most influential factors in the weight of approval is who or where it comes from. Being told by your mother that you’re beautiful is great but being told by the guy you’ve had a crush on for years that you’re beautiful? That usually carries more weight in our minds. Hearing that you’re intelligent from your best friend is one thing but gaining entry to the university you’ve been dreaming of feels more validating. Its so easy to tell ourselves that those closest to us give us compliments out of a sense of obligation or because their loves clouds the “true” picture of you. The quest for approval is one that never ends and while it can be a healthy motivator to achieve your life goals, it can just as easily be a tool for your destruction.
Hi all! This is my first attempt to join the world of blogging and I’m excited to see where it leads! My name is Ashley, I’m 23 and I spend a lot of time with my own thoughts. More than four years ago I woke up to a one-sided headache that has never gone away. I live with a condition called New Daily Persistent Headache and it has impacted my life in ways I never thought possible.
I’ll back up a little and tell you the more interesting things about me first. I was born and raised in rural Indiana with my older brother and sister. After high school graduation I moved to Texas to attend Texas A&M University. I found my calling in Animal Science but unfortunately was not able to complete my degree, though I still love to learn and educate about agriculture.
About two years ago I made the move back to Indiana and now live with my two pets, Sophie, the cattle dog mix and Glitter, the unruly cat. They definitely keep things interesting! I worked at our local humane shelter when I first moved back to the midwest but eventually my health deteriorated enough that I was unable to keep that job. I spend a lot of time now with myself either in bed or on the couch which has resulted in some interesting thoughts I mull over on a daily basis. I write for The Mighty, an online community of chronic illness sufferers which is how I learned that getting my thoughts written down is very therapeutic for me. Because The Mighty is all about chronic illnesses, not all of my writing is relevant to that site which is why I decided to give blogging for myself a shot!
It is my hope that my words encourage others and are beneficial to those who read them. Thank you to those who know me personally for taking the time to encourage me to write and thank you to those I’ve yet to meet for giving me a reason to.